Hey so still in Laos. Its nice here. So beautiful - low key. So this is the backpacker circuit ? This is what its all about? Half the people here are party people half are cool people just looking for adventure. I have been hanging with the chill people for the most part, every while bumping into the crazy party-frat kind of people. Its interesting you can forget this is a party town slow vibe, bars playing jack johnson or the like. Every once and a while you can see acouple people stumbling down the street with maker writing all over their bodies. You wonder where they could be from, out of place in the calm relaxed way of life.

Then you go over a street and its madi gras. Party central. Frat guys and drunk girls. Swedish, Australian, British.... All nationalities of frat.

For me I have been keeping it pretty down to earth. Mostly its the people I am with. Which is good. I hang out with down to earth people for a reason. Dont get me wrong sometimes its fun to meet the crazy people and hang for a few hours. But I usually hang with the crazy people on our side of town, not in Sodom.

Ha.

Well I think the day is about to start. I want to post more. It's hard to think of everything you want to post when you are on. short time. oh well maybe i will just post more, quick nonsensical things and hope that eventually i will say enough things that can be made sense of.

Blurg

So I am posting here because my personal xanga wont let me in for some reason i reset my password but bleh it didn't work. or something. So public post instead. Not that many people read this blog anyways. So semi-private semi-public post. My brain is scattered. Samurai swords. Kafka.

By bowels also hurt, and my back. Had a fever yesterday. Matt Gomes left yesterday morning. I think he got caught in the huge snowstorm back home.

I Skpyed a bit after he left. Talked to Vanessa and then my mom and sister for a while. Vanessa is really cool, its silly how talented she is. Really makes me want to create more art. soon soon. Mom and sister were nice. bit of home from thousands of miles. I started falling asleep halfway into the convo though and had to cut it short. At least i got to see their faces. My mom told me to drink lots of fluid and take meds. Then I laid in bed till i had to check out of my hotel then came here to my friends' house and slept on their couch almost all day.

Funny how I am posting in-depth about this. Boring. Meanwhile I just got back from an island with a bunch of great stories. Fell of a motor bike in the pouring rain, other day got a ride on a motorbike witha random thai guy, didn't fall off but lost and separated from my friends. the thai guy was nice enough buy neither of us spoke the others language much. non verbal communication is hard to do from the back of a motorbike/ As our boat pulled up to every island we visited in my head I heard the words "Welcome to Jurassic Park" Honestly I wouldn't have been surprised if I saw a brontosaurus walking by nibbling on some tree leaves.

I kayaked/ Found caves/ Drank good beer- double sized bottles. add smile face here. / mind blowing food- red peanut curry- green coconut curry- pad thai - roasted whole fish on a stick stuff with lemongrass - peppered squid - peppered soft shell crab!- tom yam soup- pork ball soup with seaweed- whole red snapper, white snapper, sea bass all with different preparations - giant BBQ'd king prawns- fishball soup with noodles- pork liver and noodles/ met lots of new friends/ Climb a mountain-hand over hand -down to a lagoon/ Fended off thai bar girls --something I will forever have to do here in thailand-- Bar girls are hired by the bar to make sure everyone is having a nice time. So flirt with you basically. but they will gladly be your girlfriend, for a fee. Not necessarily money but lots of gifts. And you have to pay the bar for their loss of the girl if you ever take her out durring working hours? Sounds a lot like prostitution to me. I avoid bar girls. I don't like any bit of the idea. Part out of disgust partly because of pride, I don't pay for sex. period. besides I am poor anyways. I dont think the girls realize that.

Yeah life.

Now i need to oraganize my thoughts. figure out exactly what it is I want to do here. but I am still sick. I don't want to be organized. I want to nap. I may do that. we shall see.